to my new job and I'm not certain that I made the wrong decision, but I'm also not certain I made the right one. Leaving my last job was definitely the right time, getting a job with a global company? good move. A job on the phones though? Not so sure. :??:

All the time in my last job (as a team manager after 3 years of working up to it) I insisted I'd never be on the phones again. It seemed like the most logical thing to start at the bottom in a new pool, but now I realise how much of a big pool this little fish is swimming in.

Problem now is I am practically a minnow - but with no opportunity to impress, to show off. It's taking me a lot longer to learn the ropes than I'd hoped. It reminds me of the first 6 months of my old job, where my colleague suddenly found his sales technique and became a manager in under a year whilst I still floundered. I hated that.

Maybe I'm just greedy? I want everything now, but I've to make myself known for the right reasons before I can take on the world. Less than 9 months from now, I'm gonna be sitting on a beach, sipping rum punch in a bikini. Why can't I be satisfied with this?

I see girls: 8, 10, 12 years younger than me, pushing buggys round with their babies. I wonder why? Why am I "sensible" enough to be waiting til we can afford stuff, but I know certainly that I am going to wait until after our luxury holiday and my divine beach body appears, so I can bathe in the luxury of being curvy rather than overweight.

Yes, there is a lot that I'd like handed to me on a platter, immediately. But for those two weeks of triumph? I guess I can put the rest of my aspirations on hold. U-( Until that time though? I'll have to cope. In the mean time I have plenty to get me going - gym three or more times a week, driving lessons and a theory test to pass, a distance learning course from work, oh, and our home to finish decorating...

Cheerio!

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