happy as i am

Well, I've just visited Jackfrosts blog and seen a most inspiring clip. It's made me think again of all the good things I have going for me. And in line with that I'm gonna try to be more positive in my blogs. Unless of course summat is really getting me down

So, to start - it is the 1st of September tomorrow, I have precisely 2.5 months til I embrace my time as a 'thirty-something'. I was so worried when I turned 25 that life was passing me by, but with my man I my side the world is our oyster.

Minor grumbles and aches aside all is going well for Happy28. I've so much I still want to do, and in fact I will achieve it.

So, popping babies on the back burner (not literally) for a short time, here's my short term goals (and by that I mean the next 6 months).

In no priority at this point of course:
Give blood.
Get a tattoo.
Pass my theory test.
Get my waist to 36 inches and my weight to 11 stone 7.
Visit the personal shopper at Debenhams (and blow a small fortune on new clothes)
Go rock climbing.
Have more sex. With the hubby of course. (sorry if I've made anybody blush).
Complete the course I've started at work.

There are other things I'd like to achieve but these are the majority.

Back to work tomorrow, my cold is getting better after a very restful weekend, so onwards!

x

Hey,
the sun shone all day and it was lovely. We had coffee in our garden before walking into town, where i got myself fitted with my first ever pair of contact lenses. Hubby headed home early, whilst I hung about town, the re-fit of M&S nearly complete I coulda shopped for hours, but I needed some lunch, so instead I headed home.

Nice relaxing lunch in the sun, ham & brie rolls, pringles and pepper houmous. Then a nice snooze - i didn't sleep so well last night (again) so it was nice to catch up. So yeh, then back out to the garden, a bit of time on the net, a chat with mum and a bit of study.

Relaxing lazy day.

Tomorrow I'm off to B&Q to speak to a man about a bathroom. Hopefully to get a quote on getting the whole lot completed - only four years later, but it's better than nowt. Should really buy the stuff and find a cheap and cheerful plumber but I've no idea what constitutes cheap, and besides I don't have the time to sit at home and get quotes.

Let's hope the sun shines tomorrow, and then on into and throughtout September and October if possible too. I'd love,love, love to be able to spend evenings in the garden. It's so relaxing. It makes the evening seem longer.

Well, that's all.

Hope everyone is well.

Happy

x

driving in my car! Or not, I had another driving lesson, I've now racked up twenty hours and dont feel anywhere near ready to take a test. I've 2 months to get my theory down right for my theory then I'll worry bout a practical test, probably not til after Xmas though.

Hope you are all well, gotta go, grubs up

x

We went to a Mexican restaurant on the night of his actual birthday, just the two of us, it was great.

We'd had our eye on the place since it opened over 18 months ago, but never got round to going. Everyone had recommended it but with old job never found time, then we'd discovered the curry house and that became our restaurant of choice.

Anyway, back to Thursday night, we went out for a drink first, I stuck with coke as I'd not eaten for hours, then we strolled on up to Limings. The starters were absolutely delicious, hubby had a cheese sauce with jalepenos and tortilla chips, I had deep fried chicken tortilla parcels. YUM.

I kinda bottled out with my main course, I had ribs and wings, the ribs were absolutely delicious, finger lickingly good, but the chicken wings were nothing special. But still, there was a nice atmosphere and my wine was going down well also.

I had pudding, he had a coffee. I had a toffee apple pie thing with ice cream and it was lovely. Then we strolled home, hand in hand, talking and putting our world to rights. Once again we reminded each other how we should go out more often, before getting home and tumbling into bed and straight to sleep.

We were soooo lucky, the weather was lovely all day Saturday. He and I were a brilliant tag team with the housework, shopping and baking that needed doing, in preparation for our guests of the evening (we only clean when we have people round, the rest of the time we live in our own muck and shuffle stuff back and forth as necessary).

The fridge was full to bursting and then everybody arrived with more food! I couldn't believe it. As a result we still have the rolls we bought and all our sausages too.

The cake which was supposed to be hubbys birthday cake went horribly wrong, one layer crumbled to pieces, the butter icing looked like water icing, but the lemon sponge was lovely.

Everyone arrived and I lit the BBQ, the wind picked up and it kept blowing out. Then it dawned on us that we'd finally run out of gas!!! Shock horror, embarrasment.

12 hungry people and no means of cooking fresh meat. So, we were lucky we found a petrol station that does gas bottles, and took ours up for a swop. Then we were cooking. Twas a good night, friends huddled around a table in the garden, hubby eventually cooking by torch light, and everyone stuffed to the gills.

It was about 10pm when we made our way indoors to gossip for another couple hours. Nobody had room for pudding or crisps, until I opened the bag of funsize Cadburys chocolates and everybody dived in.

Nothing better than a room full of familiar faces, gassing about familiar and new topics on a full belly.

It sure was a good (if alcohol fuelled) night.

Hi honey,
I hope the sun shines on you up there in the North, and you have a really relaxed and fun filled day. You certainly deserve it. I will raise a glass to you tonight, as we fire up our BBQ to celebrate my hubbys birthday too.

And to all you other bloggers out there:

Get out and enjoy the sunshine! Have a lovely 3 day weekend one and all!

Hubby had a bad morning at work, prompted him to send me an email advising that a) he was taking a half days holiday, and b) he was keen to review our options of moving abroad.

So now, I'm thinking practical here, his aunt lives in Maryland, USA.
There are branchs of our bank out there.
He has plenty of banking experience.
Maybe we should look at moving there?

Could be interesting, we're still bound by the usual stuff, need to finish flat so it's rentable, need to be able to drive (confidently if going to the USA and driving on the wrong side of the road) and gotta have cash! That and Visas and stuff, but it'd be soo handy having someone who knows the area, the good 'hoods to live in and the not so good. Definitely a thought to hold on to.

Well, we're getting some savings 'together' although its mostly going aside for holidays so far, but anythings better than nothing.

Negatives so far? It's not the Caribbean, it's not near a beach.

That's all I can see really.

Falling asleep as I type so I'm going bed.

G'night

x

Was sooo much fun. I was scared shitless whilst I drove. I've been doing 60+ miles on dual carriageways and going through little villages like Angmering at 20mph too. It felt great though and I've come back full of energy.

So much so that I'm heading to the gym to burn some of it off.

The sun shines in Worthing, have a great day all!

x

I've just spent a (not to fraught) evening with my kid sis. She is seeming a lot more back to normal and has in no uncertain terms been told not to turn up unannounced on my doorstep again.

She still craves this ex boy, but he is currently not answering her calls, and she is slowly getting the picture. She's grown enough to make her own mistakes. I've just got to let her. I think she's got a good head on her shoulders, at least I hope so.

She's a couple more weeks til they remove her section but hopefully she'll carry on taking her pills and be ok as time goes by. So thank you for all your support.

Many thanks

x

Oh yes. We were due over at our friends house for 8pm, so at 6.45pm I decided that I'd bake some cookies to take with us. Seemed a good idea, nice way to kil some time, and turning up with fresh home made cookies looks good.

It was a good idea, I was so slow in the preparation that they were only just outta the oven when it was time to leave. The last tray were too hot to take (and sadly so under cooked they fell apart when they were later moved to a tin).

Anyway, we got to our friends, and sat in the garden with lots of other mates and the one that I can't stand. I think I've made a new friend too. Anyway, us 3 girls sat gossiping and egging each other on to drink more wine, and so we did drink a fair bit.

As it got chillier we made a run indoors, to grab the best sofas in the front room before the boys could ocme in and take control of the tv/Playstation/Wii and spoil our fun. As well as copious amounts of wine I also had a shot of Peach Schnapps and a shot of blackcurrant and raspberry Schnapps. I couldn't resist trying them and I haven't had shots in ages.

It reminded me of my dizzy college days and all the drinking that went on then. I was very pleasantly drunk (thank god for increases in my recent alcohol intake) and very chatty. I've arranged for the lads to come round mine next week as one of the lads seemed troubled. Then I went to put the details in my phone calendar, knowing full well that I'd forget by morning. I ended up lying at the top of the stairs (trying) to send text messages to the same boys to remind them.

I was shortly joined by my hostess and her buddy, with whom I'd gossiped so much earlier, and we continued bitching and chatting about everything and nothing. I nearly died laughing, as the one I dislike came past us to go the loo - I pointed out she had not been drinking (not to our standards anyway) and she retorted... oooh, I've had two glasses of wine. I literally had to stuff a tissue in my mouth after she went coz I was trying so hard not to laugh. Two glasses? I must've drunk nearly two bottles but never mind.

At some point the three of us moved to the kitchen were toast was consumed, I missed my mouth with half a slice which we found really funny. Hubby came away from the call of the consoles at about midnight saying he was ready to go, and we were offered a lift home. Accepted gratefully. I made my final round of the lads and said g'night. Then decided to take the easy route down the stairs...

I slid down on my bum. Bumpity-bump-bump all the way to the bottom and stood up laughing my head off. For some reason this childish act makes me laugh so much, I used to do it at hubbys house and it kept me amused for hours.

We got home and ran through the events of the night before settling straight into unconsciousness for the night.

Rudely awakened at about 5am by the bint from downstairs starting her car - she didn't actually leave til nearly 8am, but had to move it from her drive onto the road outside her gate as she does every day at 5am

I had to be in town for an eye test at 9am so I got up and sat in the garden (we had sunshine first thing) and chilled. On the way to town I swear I was still drunk. My legs operated by themselves at some stupid pace, my face felt fuzzy and as I walked the shops afterwards I couldn't think straight at all.

Still, I got home at about 11am and put myself straight to bed and got up feeling more whole again at 1pm. Starting to feel a bit knackered again now though.

God!
I've just remembered that my Sainsburys shop arrived and I haven't finished putting it away. I did the frozen stuff but the rest is across my kitchen floor! Best go and finish it, I swear I am so absent minded today, but yesterday was so worth it!!!!

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Is how I feel. Tired, sleepy, miserable and blue. I don't know why, I just do.

I ache, I feel really hot and I don't wanna go to work, but so far I'm one of a handful of people in my department with zero sickness and I'd really like it to stay that way. Except I'm tired. Darn, I hate having high standards. When I had responsibilities and was supposed to set an example I managed to bunk off work, but now, with nothing/nobody/no work load to worry about I can't do it.

Grrrr. Sod the coffee ban, I think I need one this morning, although what I really need is to rewind the clock by an hour so I can go to the gym and get my exercise hit!

Grrrrr. My sister makes my skin boil. I know she's only 17 and at that age you tend to be naive, but god! It makes me want to peel the skin away from her ex boyfriends scrotum and then feed him his testicles.

That'll make him leave her be in peace. Thing is, it's mostly her, he responds to her calls, and her messages. He knows that if he wants her she'll come running. He's been seeing her school friend for the months whilst she was in hospital, no doubt screwing her and his ex (before my sis) girlfriend too, but suddenly he's dumped my sis' friend.

He's stood her up twice now, but she still wants to see if they can get it together. She doesn't like the fact that he does drugs, neither do I to be fair, but 'he has a nice personality' like that of an oil slick perhaps?

Why do the bastards know exactly who is vulnerable, and how to make them really lose their self esteem. What I'd like to see is him try it on with someone a bit older and wiser, and then see him rebuffed. I'm so fucked off with it. (sorry but I am) but I can't force her to see sense. Maybe a hypnotherapist could do the trick?

Other than that, she sounds almost back to normal, ditzy, dozy and self centred as usual. I only hope that she is on the mend, and not hiding behind some kinda pretense, coz to be honest I think they''ll take her off Section at the beginning of next week, which means mum picking up the pieces if it all goes wrong.

I can't cope with it now, I've practically switched off. I dread the phone ringing coz I know its either her or my mum. Mum rings me more often now, it's like suddenly she's gotten needy again, maybe needs to hear from her daughter who hasn't gone off the rails.

I think it strikes closer to home because I used to lust after a bastard too, but I knew it was lust, knew that it was never a long running thing, and thought better than to sleep with him. Thank god, for who knows what I might've caught, for in retrospect he was the town tomcat, and needed to be spayed/neutured long ago.

I've waffled and rambled, from being about my sis its become about me. But to all you ladys out there who love a scumbag - take note, there are lots of fellas out to treat a woman right. you all deserve better!

It's a grey old day today. Miserable as anything. Hopefully it cheers up later.

I was trying to find a clip of Dean Martin singing Sunflower, on you tube to go with these photos, but I had to give up due to time constraints. Anyway, here are the lyrics to a beautiful song...

I was born in Texas
I was bred in Kansas
When I get married I'll be wed in Kansas
There's a true blue gal who promised she would wait
She's a sunflower from the Sunflower State

She's a sunflower, she's my sunflower
And I know we'll never part
She's a sunflower, she's my one flower
She's a flower of my heart

And my photos! Enjoy the sun shine they bring!

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